Not Ur Average Girl

in a while is that because in late January someone ahem.. umm.. ok.. my d.a.d commented on a blog post. It was a freaking experience cos he doesn’t live with us having divorced mom few years back.

It was a mere early b’day wish from him but it made me an emotional wreck. I didn’t expect this from him having walked out on us when I was just a kid. I only saw him when he came to Raipur as he made a point to visit the Church as that was one place where he could see us. He sent me a card @ School when I turned 10 and then had the nerve of calling me up when I turned 18. I didn’t paid much heed to it as I simply h.a.t.e.d him for walking out on us for some petty case..

And thank God I was a minor when the divorce case was going on in the Court which simply meant I didn’t had the “talk” with him unlike my elder brother and sister. I love the Judge cos she gave my custody to mom quickly sparing any second thoughts.

Cutting the crap, I think he counted on me being an emo freak that would rush to him if he wrote about all the good times we spent together. I was so broken up by the comment that I dialed my elder brother’s number and told him the “comment” case and asked him what to do. But I didn’t expected this reply from my brother, “Do anything you want. Just please don’t tell mother about it”. And I was reminded of the times he forgot to logoff from his gmail account and I had the chance of going thru’ some of his conversations with dad.

I didn’t had the courage to call up my elder sister as I knew that he visited her and her family. And ofcourse I couldn’t talk to mom about it.. she would be all heartbroken.

I am so thankful to God that I have such great friends like Kriti and Shraddha. I told them about the whole case and how now I was afraid to blog, upload photos at flickr etc.. they were the ones who made me realise that I blogged/ uploaded photos as I loved doing that and I wasn’t that “weak” that my d.a.d thought I was.

So I came up with a reply to him and told him not to have any sort of communication with me as I simply didn’t like it. He replied stating that he talked with my sister earlier and that it was good on my part that I was straight forward with him.

I hadn’t thought of writing this blog post but few days back I had the pleasure of watching BarlowGirl’s How Can We Be Silent DVD and the Sweet Revenge - about the song video touched a cord with me. And I thought who was I to forgive him, for the case rests with mom. And he could never stop me from doing the things that I simply loved doing.

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