in a while is that because in late January someone ahem.. umm.. ok.. my d.a.d commented on a blog post. It was a freaking experience cos he doesn’t live with us having divorced mom few years back.

It was a mere early b’day wish from him but it made me an emotional wreck. I didn’t expect this from him having walked out on us when I was just a kid. I only saw him when he came to Raipur as he made a point to visit the Church as that was one place where he could see us. He sent me a card @ School when I turned 10 and then had the nerve of calling me up when I turned 18. I didn’t paid much heed to it as I simply h.a.t.e.d him for walking out on us for some petty case..

And thank God I was a minor when the divorce case was going on in the Court which simply meant I didn’t had the “talk” with him unlike my elder brother and sister. I love the Judge cos she gave my custody to mom quickly sparing any second thoughts.

Cutting the crap, I think he counted on me being an emo freak that would rush to him if he wrote about all the good times we spent together. I was so broken up by the comment that I dialed my elder brother’s number and told him the “comment” case and asked him what to do. But I didn’t expected this reply from my brother, “Do anything you want. Just please don’t tell mother about it”. And I was reminded of the times he forgot to logoff from his gmail account and I had the chance of going thru’ some of his conversations with dad.

I didn’t had the courage to call up my elder sister as I knew that he visited her and her family. And ofcourse I couldn’t talk to mom about it.. she would be all heartbroken.

I am so thankful to God that I have such great friends like Kriti and Shraddha. I told them about the whole case and how now I was afraid to blog, upload photos at flickr etc.. they were the ones who made me realise that I blogged/ uploaded photos as I loved doing that and I wasn’t that “weak” that my d.a.d thought I was.

So I came up with a reply to him and told him not to have any sort of communication with me as I simply didn’t like it. He replied stating that he talked with my sister earlier and that it was good on my part that I was straight forward with him.

I hadn’t thought of writing this blog post but few days back I had the pleasure of watching BarlowGirl’s How Can We Be Silent DVD and the Sweet Revenge - about the song video touched a cord with me. And I thought who was I to forgive him, for the case rests with mom. And he could never stop me from doing the things that I simply loved doing.

For your nearness Lord I hunger
For your nearness Lord I wait
Hold me ever closer Father
Such a love I can’t escape

For your nearness I am hoping
For your nearness Lord I long
Have no need of any other
I have found where I belong
Yes, I have found where I belong

So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer Lord

In your nearness there is healing
What was broken now made whole
Restoration in it’s fullness
Lasting hope for all who come

In your nearness I take shelter
Where you are is where I’m home
I have need of only one thing
To be here before your throne
To be here before you throne

So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord

So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer Lord

And keep me here, keep me here
There’s nowhere else I rather be
So keep me here, keep me here
There’s nowhere else I rather be
There’s nowhere else I rather be

So draw me nearer Lord
Never let me go
Closer to your heart
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer Lord
Draw me nearer my Lord

That’s my prayer for this New Year. Wishing all of you a Blessed & Prosperous 0010 0000 0000 1001

I’ll be home for Christmas,
You can plan on me..

As I write this post, almost all of the packing is done and am waiting for mom’s phone call cos uncle (mama ji) will be coming all the way from Raipur to take me home. That’s the case because I have a lot of stuff to take back home.. clothes, bed sheets, books, notebooks and all…

Can’t wait to head home.. help mom with the ‘pakwan making’ :P, do away with last minute shopping, decorate the tree & crib and the best of all… to celebrate Christmas

Bro n his family will be home in the evening.. can’t wait to play with my best doll who is called Alicia Veronica. This will be the kiddos 2nd Christmas

Though was kinda mad yesterday on the behaviour of the HOD (that freak only granted me leave of 3 days i.e from 24-27th instead of my 6days leave from 20-27th). But who cares if the leave is granted or not.. I’m going home and for the record.. from 20th to 23rd I’ll be suffering from cough, cold and fever (thats for the HOD, and I’ll give him a fake medical certificate too)

That’s all from my side.. here’s wishing all friends n family and the readers of this blog a Very Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!!

psst: a formal Christmas n New Year post will find its way on the blog soon

Like today.. I came all the way to Rajnandgaon from home to attend college and was told that classes was suspended for the day because of the ‘Patwari Exam’.

Even though I went to see the movie ‘Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi’ with Shraddha, I feel the day would had been a totally different story if I was home today… could had helped mom with some work or should had started decorating the tree..

But… am here, cos the Director had said that he would impose 1k/day fine if we don’t attend college

Sipping chai now and listening to Elvis Presley - Christmas Duets.

psst: movie is good. loved it!